Just Thinking...

Hey, that's new. I am thinking.
Hehehe..
Ah, this temperature shock gives me flu. And I miscalculate this. I thought spring is not cold. It is! Good thing I have this thick layer of fat, so I still can survive.
Oh yeah, about the thinking.
Lately I am just involved in my own world, and seeing this blog as a kind of diary, or chatty note - as I may say, that revolve around itself. Then I read others' blogs, and, Man, they're awesome! Many great postings, pictures, poems, stories and stuff. Like, so far away from what I have here...hehehe..
Dude, I am so amateur!
But, if we think I would somehow improve this blog to be shopisticated one, well, think again. I am not that good..hahaha. That's who I am, so be it.

Here's what I think. Not directly correlated with that fact above, but it's about something that maybe correlated with the fact above (now I am confusing myself).
Sometimes, I get this envious feeling towards others' accomplishments. I do. Horrible, isn't it?
I don't know. They seem already move to the next level, while I am still stuck in the ground. They have flown to the moon and I am still biking to the grocery store. They have this and that and these and those... and I don't. Oh, it's never ending.
It's irritating me sometimes. Not their accomplishment, but the envy I feel. I don't like it.
It's pretty tiring, no?
Like chasing the future. We will never catch the future, coz once we get there, it will be present, and there will be another future ahead.
So, that's why I constantly calm myself down (I have to, or I feel suffocated), that things have their own time. People have their own tracks. Some have economic train, some other have ICE or shinkanzen. And some even don't have train yet. So how do I handle this?
By moving.
If I move, I will reach to a point, to get to the next point. Instead of drowning myself to envy which consumes so much energy and peace, I'd better enjoy my move, right? Walk a little, jump a little, run once in a while. I'd get there.

Let's have a pit stop. This one has nothing to do with the previous topics. It should be in another posting, but I am too lazy to make it.
Anyway...
I was craving for sushi recently. I took a bite the first time when I had a trip to Bremen shortly before leaving to Indonesia. My friend, Ratna, bought sushi in Hannover train station. And she offered me to taste some. It was gooooood (or was it because I was hungry?). Since then I was always thinking about sushi.
So, back in Indonesia, I was looking for sushi too. We had it in Semarang, but the taste was not the same like I had before. Different sauce. It had no ginger in it. Made me more curious.
Then when I went back to Goettingen, I tried to look for it in the train station. I didn't find it. Yet, the thought of delicious sushi was still emerging.
Meanwhile, I am now in a "tight seat belt" program. Meaning that I will manage my expense better. Preparing for the future needs the green paper, you see. And I am not so good in saving, I am good in spending..hehe. So, with a good intention and strong will, I make a promise not to buy any clothes this semester to save some bucks (sob..sob..).
That move's supposed to give me extra saving right? Well, not really.
When I went to the grocery store with shopping list, I ended up with another shopping list. Who knows that in Real there would be a section with japanese spices rack in it?? And it had sushi stuffs! See my dilemma? (I exaggerated a little bit).
Anyway, my strong will moved to another will. I bought those sushi stuffs, and it cost me like one or two shirts.
But... at least I could make my own sushi..!
I did, actually. Once I got all the ingredients, I opened youtube and looked for "how to make sushi". I didn't buy any fish (I am still a bit reluctant eating raw fish), so I was looking for subtitution of fish for the sushi filling. Taking steps according to the sushi master, from preparing sushi rice to serving it, it took me a all afternoon. My first experiment was not satisfying. The rice was too wet and not well seasoned. But the look was not bad. I guessed.

I ate them all, with the sauce I made (soysauce, ginger, wasabi). The sauce was kind of different hot with sambal, and eating too much of it was not good idea... believe me.