Why do I use English? Why not

Happy Birthday, Mom! I love you so much...

Hi, dude (it's my habbit to call you dude). Maybe you wonder why I use English in my blog...or maybe you don't care...he he. Well, tell you what, don't bother. Whatever the language I use, as long as it can put a smile on people face (my own face in case no one reads) or at least light a little spark...that'll do.

Okay....
I feel ackward now. Like making your first line for your report/thesis...kill you with the numb on your head. What am I gonna write? First word is always the hardest. You think and you think but you can't find the perfect word to start. And in the end you're just staring at your computer, frozen, until a wonderful idea comes up. Play Bounce!

Talking about Bounce, I thought I was so great in playing Bounce. I could reach 1,000,000 points (with tremendous effort, staying up all night. I believed I forgot to blink that moment just make sure the bomb didn't explode. It felt so good when I did it. Oh, victory, you're just so sweet...). I was very proud like winning an Oscar (excuse me?). I even bragged... Until I saw the score in my friend's computer the next week. More than 5,000,000! What???

The ball bounced on my head. I didn't like it, you know, the defeat. I knew I could do better. I knew I could beat that person (in Bounce, literally). So, I played again, with the goal reaching up to 6,000,000! Guess what happened? The bomb exploded at 120,000 and it didn't get higher than 300,000 after days of battle. I felt a little bit frustated. Why? Why couldn't I be the best? (screaming)

I get the answers later. First, when you focus on defeating people, you're actually defeated, by your own envy, disatisfaction and anger. I should defeat the game, right? Not the person. People are not enemy. Bad characters and bad system are the enemy.
Second, there're millions of people in this world. If everyone wants to be number one, who's gonna be number two? Some people are better than others, we have to admit that. Maybe it's not our spot, so what? But it doesn't mean that we can't be number one, of course. We just have to figure out what field that we can have to be the best. Blue Ocean Strategy.
I believe each and everyone of us is gifted a special thing by Allah, so be special then.

Whoaa......was that me who said those things? (GUBRAKK!!) I suddenly get a headache...

This thing doesn't match with the title, eh? I guess so...Maybe the person who's writing this is not in the right dimension (whispering)

Hey, are you talking about me?? Scraaaaam!

Werrrrrr!!!! (sound of people running away in 100 mph speed avoiding the monster, Noinzilla)

*Signing out*